The Waiting Is Over

Inside I had a silent pact,

a silent protest,

a quiet calm.

 

I wanted the pain and suffering to end

before I played,  

and so I waited.

 

I had many reasons to reject the joy.

I feared the hurt.

I was uncomfortable and blue.

 

I wanted to be safe.

I wanted life to get better.

I wanted my dreams to always come true.

 

But life was not helping.

Things were not getting better.

And so I waited.

 

I waited to open.

I waited to change.

I waited for peace and for life to get better.

 

My plan was simple or so I thought. 

I would will to won’t.  

I would be strong as a knot.

 

I would sacrifice and protest and never bow.

Life would get better, but I did not know how.  

 

Time went by and to my surprise,

my resistance and sacrifice made me strong

I surmise.

 

But what I did not see was how I was stuck

or how I was attached to the discomfort in life.

I did not see how this choice caused my strife.

 

Then one day I awakened.  I decided to see.

I looked at my truth.

I saw the beauty that persisted.

 

I opened to love.

I saw the light.

It was always there, even though I resisted. 

 

The wisdom and love bubbled up from inside.

It filled my heart. 

I could no longer hide.  

 

I felt the joy.   

My love overflowed.

I was happy to know there would be no more waiting.   

There was still resistance, but I did not force.

I acknowledged the path and offered a choice.

I invited each aspect of self into life and respected each voice.      

Some aspects were unsure.

I gave them the space

to open to heart and accept a new place.   

I honored myself.

I accepted what was.

I no longer had to be perfect in order to be me.  

And so today my wait ends,

and gone is my fight,
as I welcome my new way of wisdom and light.

 - Joe Hurley

An excerpt from my book, "Poems of Light."

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